:: Ódio e Desprezo ::

É tudo aquilo que mereces,
E tudo aquilo que te irei dar
Por cuspires na mão que por tanto tempo
Nunca te deixou de apoiar..

Perdi colegas, perdi amigos,
Mas fiquei sempre do teu lado.
É esta a paga que me dás
Por nunca te ter abandonado.

De mim apenas verás veneno
E toda a pior parte de mim.
Espero que estejas contente,
A minha paciencia chegou ao fim.

Quanto mais eu te conheço,
Menos te quero conhecer..
Odeio-te a tal ponto
De só te querer ver sofrer.

Agora tentas pedir desculpa!!
Achas que te vou perdoar assim?
E ainda tens a merda do descaramento
De te tentares comparar a mim??!

Eu sempre fui quem sou!
Tu finges ser quem és.
Nem que morras a tentar,
NUNCA me chegarás aos pés.

Por isso lava essa boca porca, imunda,
Antes de o meu nome sequer mensionar.
Lava bem com lixivia e água raz...
Reduz assim o risco de o sujar!

És uma merda, uma cópia banal,
Daquelas mais rascas que pode haver,
Uma puta de uma imitação barata,
Daquelas que nem se consegue vender.

Há pessoas que se oferecem,
Mas tu então és mesmo achada.
Só a tua presença me dá nojo,
Não passas de carne mastigada.

:: Dream Man ::

She has no words to describe
The way he makes her feel
She can't begin to imagine
If he touched her, how it'd feel.

Vision of his likeness
At night, inside her dreams
But at the dawning of wakefulness
His memory's just a gleam.

It's the closest she can get to him
A knowledge she must bear.
Only in the world of her subconscious
Can she show him how she cares.

A one-sided connection,
She uses him as her muse.
But he's unaware of her existence
So he's not really hers to loose.

She holds a tiny hope inside,
Never sharing it with others,
Of a secret love affair,
That she might have with her dream lover.

:: People ::

When the time is yours, the time is gone.
When it feels so right, it's on it's way to wrong.
When you love so much can you always be sure
That your love is a touch... that your love is a cure?
When you feel as if you're hated, will you make it through?
This unpredictable life... These unappreciated dues?
When you say what you feel, will they look at you and laugh?
When you know what you've learned, will they stab you in the back?
If you fall from where you're standing, will they try to make the save?
When you stand on what you're saying, will they listen as the road you pave?
When the time is yours... The future's awaiting...
The person you become... The people you're creating.

:: I Wonder ::

I wonder if he hated me...
What was going through his mind?
I wonder if he loved me...
What was inspiring his sign?
I wonder if he felt me?
Like goosebumps through the skin..
I wonder if he watched me
And cared for where I've been...

Like a loser that no one knew...
I wonder if he cheered for me.
Like a youngster that had grew...
I wonder if he cared for me.
I wonder if he was lying
When he said "You suck!"
I wonder if he was being honest
When he wished me "Good luck!"

I wonder if he will be with me
Until I have to fold...
I wonder if he will remember
Annie, as she grows old.

:: Asleep ::

Sitting on the porch, scared to ring the bell,
I wait for you to see me. I sit scared as hell.
Rocking in the chair, hoping the squeaks bring you near,
I wait for you to hear me, I'm alone so filled with fear.
Pacing on the hardwood, not knowing what to say
When you see me pacing, when you make your way.
Laying on your welcome mat, not feeling very welcome,
I guess you're in there sleeping, you're so peaceful when you sleep...
Freezing on the outside... so cold but yet so sweet.
Your body's on the inside... I'd kill to feel your heat.
Dialing on my phone the number of your phone.
I can't press send, so now I'm going home.
Walking to my car... I want to kill myself...
You make me feel complete...without you I'm never free.
Free from depressive states... of mind, body and soul.
Free from sad days with me... free from sad days alone.
Turning my ignition switch... bright lights start shining through.
My eyes are blinded momentarily... holy shit, it's you!
Sitting on the porch together... not worried about the bell...
We're looking in to each others eyes... I'm no longer scared as hell...
This night will be a memory... One that's sure to keep...
I didn't want to wake you... I thought you were asleep.

:: Reaching In ::

Let's say your name was Reaching In...
Let's say you were given this power.

A power that made you super...
A power that made you more than me...
A power that nobody else could have...
A power that only you could see...

A vibe that only you could feel...
A move that only you could perform...
A card that only you could deal...
A cold heart that only you could warm...

Let's say your name was Reaching In...
Let's say you were given this choice.

A choice that made you think...
A choice that made you fit out...
A choice that made you scared...
A choice that made you doubt...

A bad that only you could make good...
A crime that only you could steal...
A scene that makes you wish you could...
A hurt that only you could heal...

Let's say you were given this power...
Let's ask... Would you still be Reaching In?

:: Mirror of Lies ::

Look into your own eyes,
Check into yourself.
Look into your own world,
Look without the help
Of people who try to change you,
Of people who try to hurt you
The people that try to make you.
Something you're not. Something un-new
Look into your own past...
Create the history
Of things you've done
And things you're gonna do...
Of things you love
And things you'll breakthrough.
The things that fit...
The description of you
Are the things you need
To stand out in this zoo.

Look into... your mirror of lies...
Look deep into... your own strange eyes.

:: Trapped Inside ::

Inside a bubble that somebody blew,
I am the wall you see right through.

Away from space, I'm trapped inside.
There is no room... no room to hide.
Inside a star that everyone sees,
They see the sparkle, but can't see me.

Away from land, I'm trapped inside.
I'm sorry I did it... sorry I lied.
Inside a song that nobody hears,
There's only me, wet from tears.

Away from grace, I'm trapped inside.
I'm floating away to the other side.
Inside a world that you created,
I've left this world, myself has faded.

Away from love, I'm trapped inside.
I'm held from holding... my body's died.
Inside my soul that you reach through,
I am the ghost that stays with you.

Away from them, I watch you sleep.
I visit your dreams... in peace so deep.
Inside a bubble that somebody blew,
I am your angel... that somebody is you.

:: You ::

You comfort me better than any chair, bed, room, or house,
You amaze me more than any facts, stories, truths, or lies,
You enhance me more than any drug, drink, pill, or powder,
You predict me better than any parent, coach, counselor, or teacher,
You season me better than any salt, pepper, winter, or summer,
You entertain me more than any movie, show, song, or competition,
You control me better than any school, job, jail, or prison,
You love me more than any person, God, business, or existance...
In my existance, believe I do.
In our existance, I live for you.

:: All I Want ::

Another world, is where I want to go.
Another life, is what I want to show.
Another face, is what I want to feel.
Another card, is what I want to deal.

Another person, is who I want to be.
Another lover, is who I want to see.
Another hand, is what I want to hold.
Another business, is what I want to fold.

Another sickness, is what I want to end.
Another straight line, is what I want to bend.
Another power, is what I want to have.
Another lucky number, is what I want to grab.

Another time ... I don't know what I want...

:: What Can I Do? ::

4 pm, I can finally step outside.
I watch the sweet kidds play,
They smile at me, I smile back.
God, it's such a beautiful day..

The green grass, the bright blue sky,
The sun rays that warm my skin...
The dried tears they made me cry,
But nothing's as perfect as it seems

Mommy says I'll die alone...
Daddy says nothing coz he's away.
I care to know that she is right,
And not about what she has to say...

People outside, they make me sick,
Just turn around, stop and stare
With a disgusted look in their eyes.
All I can do is pretend not to care.

And then at night, amoung my friends,
I ask them out, they stay at home...
Not knowing what I'm thinking about,
The last thing I want is to be alone...

I try to get up, reach out for an hand,
I look around and no one's there...
I suffocate, I drown, I die..
Everyday I'm living this nightmare...

I need someone
To dry my tears,
And keep me away
From all my fears.

So here I write now...
Undressed of every mask.
Take a good look at me,
It might be your last...

What am I supposed to do,
When I can barelly feel?
When all dreams turn to dust,
or everything I believe isn't real..

I will swallow my pills
And pretend everything's okay.
I'll put on my favorite smile
And face another lonely day.