:: Numbers of my Life ::

14th February is here, I have no Valentine...
19 years alone, oh, this poor heart of mine...
It all started in 1991, my birth, 23th January.
Date I'd like to forget, but I'm forced to carry.

1st April of 2007 is a date I'll never forget,
I talked with the best person I have ever met.
Someone that can make me happy, numb and sad,
Someone I love so much that it makes me mad.

0 guys I had a crush on, 2 guys I truly loved...
1 was far away in presence, other away in soul.
Oh, silly me. I really thought he was the one...
He didn't took care of me, he turned me undone.

That crushing love I felt for those two
They were two different kinds of "love"
One was The One I'd like to spend my life with
The other was like a brother, but nothing beyond

1st December 2009. 1st day I haven't felt alone.
It was actally the only day I ever felt at home...
26th December and 22 January, worst days of my life
My heart got crushed and my hope stabed with a knife.

There are still some good and bad memories in between.
Well, mostly are bad and the good ones won't be seen.
Long 19 years of my life and that's all I can remember,
Bitter memories and things that my thoughts smother...

I still love him so much, and I know, forever will.
It hurts so much to know these wounds will never heal.
He is everything I wish. Like him there is no other one...
Oh, sorry for all this...! Happy Valentine's day everyone.

:: Makes no Sense ::

I'm getting bored with so much fun,
Brave and confident in all my fear,
Going blind for staring at the sun,
Letting all my frustration desappear...

Now, at the bright side of the darkness,
I shout with a golden voice of silence,
Inside this fortress, I'm now an actress
Trying to get closer from the distance...

The world is my stage, my mind is a script,
But it's all messed up, every word just slipped.
I'm so confused with all this certainty,
I ended up defeated in all my victory...

That happy unhappiness that I once felt,
Is now a wonderful joy, there is no shame,
That cold heart of yours, my thoughts melt,
Everything changes back to the same...

Questions and questions are left unanswered,
Puzzles and crosswords without any clue,
With every word that is spoken I get tortured,
Is there any kind of feeling inside of you???

Oh, this impatient calm that I feel,
You don't care, you don't understand...
Well no one does and no one will,
You run unstead giving me your hand.

Will you ever love me?
(For what I am and not what I might be)
Will I ever forget you?
(Forget all lies and recreate the truth)

I welcome you to my head,
To the mother of all lies,
To a place where patience is dead,
To a place where all sense dies...

:: What I Know ::

I don't know who I am,
I don't know what I feel,
I don't know what is nice,
I don't know what is real,

I don't know what is right,
I don't know what is wrong,
I don't know what to write,
I don't know where I belong,

I don't know what to say,
I don't know how to speak,
I don't know where to stay,
I don't know what I seek,

I don't know how to react,
I don't know what to choose,
I don't know what to believe in,
I don't know what I might lose,

I don't know what to think,
I don't know what to show,
I don't know what to win,
I don't know when to let go,

I don't know when I'm hurt,
I don't know when I'm seen,
I don't know how I breathe,
I don't know where I've been,

I never knew what is new;
I never knew when I fall;
I never knew what to do;
I never knew anything at all...

I know that I care for him;
I am sure that I want him;
He helps me rise when I'm low...
He is the only truth I know...